Goodbye my Sweet Sweet Sweet Girl Jozi

Today was the last day that our girl was with us.

Today we were scheduled for an ultrasound.

Today I loaded Jozi in the car and gave her many pets and love kisses while we drove to the vet's office.

Today I entered the vet's office carrying Jozi since she has been unable to walk. 

Today at 2:25 p.m. Jozi went limp in my arms and her eyes rolled back in her head.

They started CPR, no 💓 beat.

They couldn't get that tiny girl's big heart to come back.

Today our Jozi died.

Today Jozi died in the arms of her mom and I still can't get the thought of that last moment out of my mind. 

Jozi Wales Wigglebutt  06/01/2011 - 02/13/2023

11 years - 8 months - 11 days old

610 Weeks and 5 Days

4,275 Days

102,600 Hours

Today we looked through a book and picked out an urn for Jozi's ashes.     

I took my credit card out for the last time to pay for something for Jozi.  

Today I purchased a private cremation for Jozi instead of an ultrasound. 

This was not the last thing that I thought I would purchase today.  

Not TODAY. 

Today we are devastated and not sure how or when or if we will ever be able to come back from this. 

The loss is so profound.  The ache in my heart and body is so huge.

The gap is tremendous in our lives now.

I had a very hard time walking in the door at home today without my Jozi girl.

All of Jozi's things are here and everywhere I look I see her things.

Her toys, her beds, her blankets, her rain jacket and winter coat, her leash and harness, her her frozen yogurt bones in the freezer. 

I will never be able to look at or even eat green beans or carrots again I don't think. Jozi loved them. 

Jozi was our child she was our reason for practically everything. 

Our lives revolved around Jozi most definitely. 

She brought us joy and created laughter in our household. 

She had been struggling the past 3 weeks, she had stopped walking due to her back legs giving out. 

She stopped eating and wanted nothing to do with any food. 

She was diagnosed with pneumonia last Thursday evening and was started on many meds, given IV fluids for dehydration and she just did not engage in much.  I was so worried and we tried everything.  Thought it was DM, IVDD, scheduled an MRI and that had to be put on hold due to the pneumonia and lack of appetite.  Then her calcium levels skyrocketed and our vet was overly concerned. She called me to check on Jozi late in the day on Saturday and stayed at the office after they were already closed to provide me with an appetite stimulant to possibly help Jozi eat.  It worked on Saturday, she acted hungry and ate.  Then Sunday she refused any and all food even after the appetite stimulant. Then I tried to give her some of her other meds and she lashed out at me and took a huge chunk out of my finger but I did not care.  I was all in to work hard to get her better, get her over the pneumonia so she could eat since she loved food and would gobble up any food.  Then we would do the MRI.  

I called her the Corgi vacuum cleaner. She used to watch me make dinner from her 'line' spot on the rug between the kitchen and the dining room. Then if I dropped something or said oops she was right there to chomp it down.  She was quicker than I was most times. 

Still not enough time, we wanted more, we needed more, we should have had more time. We should have been able to save you. 

I loved you from the moment I held you in my arms, baby girl. 

I will always love you.

I fought hard for you but you couldn't stay even though I tried to get you to stay. 

 

      

Jozi Belle, JoJo, Wigglebutt, Sunshine, Sweetie Pie, Sweetheart, JoBelle, Short Stack, Baby Girl.   

You were beautiful, loving and a gift for us.     

 We miss you so so very much and it's only been 3 hours.... 

XXOOXX Mom and Dad 

Please please know that we loved you with all our might and will forever remember you and how much you touched our lives with your barooooos and barks and boofs, your squeaky toy obsession and the infinite sparkle you had with that little butt wiggle and that big Corgi grin.  

Peace, Love, Barks and Treats Forever, Cat

The final post of Jozi the Corgi and the Pussycats.