Jozi died when she was 11 years, 8 months, 1 week and 4 days old on 02.13.2023
Jozi will always and forever be my heart 💖 pup. I am so very grateful of all the love and all the feels that Jozi gave me over the years. She was a bright light in our lives and brought so much joy and at the when she died, we had so much heartbreak. I wish she could have stayed with us forever but I know that these littles are only in our lives for a short time and time moves so very quickly every single day.
Jozi will always have a special piece and a special place in my heart and I have such fond memories and many pictures even though I feel like I did not take enough and capture those memories more. I’m never going to forget that Jozi died but I have to keep remembering that that Jozi lived and I loved her for her entire life.
Crumbs On My Kitchen Floor & An Ache In My Soul
After your heart stopped beating on that sunny February day
I tried to tell the world to stop moving, if only for a few
short moments
I wanted it to stop moving because your heart stopped
beating
And my heart was broken in pieces
I loved you with every fiber of my soul, up to that very
last beat
I needed to process what had happened at 2:25 pm on 02.13.23
When I handed you off to those that would try to restart
your big heart
I was ushed into a room, scared and alone and shaking
Moment later, I was told that you were no longer here
They brought you in to us and the tears flowed, no movement
from you
I kissed you and told you over and over I was sorry and I
loved you
As I stroked your soft fur and wiped away the tears from my
stained face
I felt for a moment that time was frozen
That this was all just a cruel nightmare, that it wasn’t
true
But as your lifeless body that I once cradled in my arms
stood still
I knew you were gone and it was not a bad dream
So today, one year later. I’m still here without you, still waiting
Waiting for the world to stop and give me a chance to catch
up
To give me some peace albeit as selfish as that may sound
To give me a sign that it is okay for my soul to start healing
There has not been a moment in a day that I don’t think
about you
I miss your nails and the tap-tap on the kitchen floor
As you search for dropped crumbs to gobble up
Today, one year later, there are too many crumbs on the floor
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